Monster mum

I have spent the past two days with my mum and dogs at her caravan in Filey.

Unlike my last post, I have been doing well running and keeping up with it. 

Both mornings I have had a steady 1.5 mile run. Shorter than my usual two miles but the terrain is a lot more difficult. Very up and down hill on top of a lot of rubble, so I am pleased with myself on that front.

On the other hand, my sugar intake has been something to be ashamed of.

My mother, as fantastic as she is, is a baker!
Not by trade but she loves to bake and she is good at it. It is rare I visit home and there isn't some cakey goodness waiting for me. On the one hand, I moan about it affecting my waistline, but god forbid I come home and she hasn't baked anything... I make her life hell. 

This week she had made my favourite, banoffee pie. Mmmm. 

I perhaps wouldn't feel as bad if my lunches and dinners were light and healthy. But no. On Tuesday I indulged in a lot of BBQ food. I know, it is healthy. Not if you eat as much as we do when we BBQ. 

Then last night we ate at our favourite pub. A pub that does nothing but delicious food. But they have no concept of a small portion. 

This was a SMALL roast lamb dinner

I had an 8oz gammon and pineapple with chips and this particular pub has a habit of battering everything. I had three battered mushrooms, an onion ring and a battered parsnip (which is delicious).

My yummy naughty dinner pre banoffee pie

Today however was a new day. 

I haven't gone a day since Friday, without some chocolate. Until today. I have eaten reasonably well today. The only guilt I have comes with the two small slices of garlic bread that came with my lasagne. 

So today, I am patting myself on the back. Onwards and upwards. 

Not the best start...

I have recently got into running. 

I am quite proud of myself because I actually have arthritis so I never saw running as an option. 

One day I thought, ill try it and I haven't looked back since. I can manage two miles outdoors and three on the treadmill. It has only taken me 5 weeks to get here from never running in my life.

I now aim to do a 10k soon then a half marathon. 

After eating too much sugary goodness yesterday I was raring to go when I woke at 8am. But the fog is horrific, I don't trust myself out there! It looks like its an evening run for me. 

That might be the best, it might combat my need to snack in the evening. 

Why the Blog?

This might seem odd to some people but, I am a sugarholic. While I love health and nutrition, I am an exercise enthusiast there is one thing I cannot control... My sugar intake. 
Like many other women around the world the tooth rotting goodness of a chocolate bar is just too tempting to pass on.
Don't get me wrong, chocolate, cakes, sweets, they will always be a part of my life but I desperately need to get control over my cravings before I become one massive, molasses blob.
I know all about nutrition and what is good or bad for me, however the need to feed is always upon me and for some reason, fruit just doesn't cut it.
I don't know if this is just me but I wake up and I feel like today will be a good day but by 3pm some subconscious urge inside me has convinced my hands to pick up a doughnut. And before I know it, i've eaten an extra 500 calories and doubled my daily sugar intake.
Thus meaning the tyre around my waist, that I am desperate to get rid of doesn't budge. Not only is it always there but it is always mocking me.
I go to bed disappointed in myself and then do it all again the next day.
For now I am a healthy weight but how long can it last?
So the only thing left to do was to create a public page where I name and shame myself but where I can also give myself a pat on the back when it has been a good day.
It is the only incentive I have left. Let us pray it works...